perception of perdition

2008-10-04T04:25:00.001+08:00

finally... patience leads to fruition

2008-10-01T02:31:00.001+08:00

amidst the festivities,
i'm forsaken

2008-09-28T04:23:00.001+08:00

She never really had a chance
On that fateful moonlit night
Sacrificed without a fight
A victim of her circumstance

Now that Ive become aware
And Ive exposed this tragedy
A sadness grows inside of me
It all seems so unfair

Im learning all about my life
By looking through her eyes
I felt so empty as I cried
Like part of me had died

And as her image
Wandered through my head
I wept just like a baby
As I lay awake in bed

And I know what its like
To lose someone you love
And this felt just the same

She wasnt given any choice
Desperation stole her voice

I had to suffer one last time
To grieve for her and say goodbye
Relive the anguish of my past
To find out who I was at last

The door has opened wide
Im turning with the tide
Looking through her eyes

2008-09-19T09:39:00.001+08:00

nothing's changed
still a piece of the puzzle
that doesen't really belong anywhere
at all.

nothing's changed
nothing at all.

2008-09-15T11:42:00.001+08:00

Not all scars show,
Not all wounds heal,
sometimes you just can't see
the pain someone feels

2008-09-14T07:04:00.001+08:00

my hands are searching for you,
my arms are outstretched towards you,
I feel you on my fingertips,
my tongue dances behind my lips for you

2008-09-02T06:01:00.001+08:00

2008-08-27T14:51:00.001+08:00

just a matter of time,
those broken shards,
embedded in his heart,
finally faded, forever

his motives,
his will,
the reason he lives,
to finally be complete

the rhythm of time,
904 dawns ago,
his last taste of that
which made him whole

he was hoping to find her,
she who could once again,
ignite the flames of conviction,
but alas despite everything, failure

seeking, waiting, searching,
he thought he had found her,
lest her heart belonged to another,
he walks away

the drive within his heart,
no longer love,
now filled with dust,
hate and vengeance reign.

I will no longer be the one for you, no longer will I catch anyone who falls.
Nor will I consider the feelings of others, for all that matters is getting what I want.Always putting others before me was a mistake, and caring for them was too. In the end, the only one that loses is you. I used to be someone who'd give a shit about you, but that time is long gone. Good riddance.

2008-08-25T03:30:00.001+08:00

through the desolate past,
those deprivations and inhibitions...
through your care and concern,
you've incited malice and repugnance

a child grew in that solitary shell,
oblivious to your intent,
yet suffering within,
an untold loneliness

you and your worldly possessions,
those misled ambitions,
through age, those wilted; rotten,
a child, he was forgotten

as he grew,
rejected by his peers,
scorned to others,
yet loved by you

that child,
once helpless and alone
now mature,
wings of radiant blue

his loneliness made him strong,
his feelings, intense; your son
unbound to love, unbound to you
his allegiance to you, untrue

now finally lucid,
had you left him for dead,
he chooses to leave you instead.

he looks up to you for example,
he looks up to you for guidance,
but all you've given him,
are ill-influenced and malignant

while you were chasing your ambitions,
while you were chasing your dreams,
he matured alone, never knowing his
always pondering his purpose

and now its been made clear,
even though your intentions were good,
the means to an end was crude,
he silently hated you

day by day you grew decadent,
with each passing trial you fade,
the growing spite in his heart,
he loathes you, for fate

you may not realize the things you do have implications on those around you. but know that for everything you do, there will be commitments to follow through. although you held me as a child, I now have nothing but ever-growing spite for you and that nonchalance. I am ashamed to be your son. Your attitude doesn't help.

2008-08-06T05:40:00.001+08:00

you loathe, detest, reject, abhor me,erase and hate me, cos' thats all you're capable of

2008-07-22T00:53:00.001+08:00

reminiscent letter,
how could I, how
why, did I do such,
you truly deserved better

some would call this self-exploration,
seeking truth? seeking flaws?
abandoning all past temptation,
an affront, cruelty in motion

though you were mistaken,
to have left me such,
for I was but a ripe seed,
now sprouting proudly in grace.

deny as u might, but soon it will be lucid.
I am unlike any other.

2008-07-19T00:48:00.005+08:00

Why, tell me the reasons why
Try, still I don't understand
Will I ever feel this again
Blue sky, I'll meet you in the end

Free them, free the memories of you
Free me, and rest 'til I'm with you

A day like today
My whole world has been changed
Nothing you say
Will help ease my pain

Turn, I'll turn this slowly round
Burn, burn to feel alive again
She, she'd want me to move on
See me, this place I still belong

Give chase, to find more than I have found
And face, this time now on my own

Days disappear
And my world keeps changing
I feel you here
And it keeps me sane

So I'm moving on

I'll never forget
As you lay there and watched me
Accepting the end
I knew you were scared
You were strong I was trying

I gave you my hand
I said it's okay letting go time to leave here
And I'll carry on
The best that I can without you here beside me

Let him come take you home

2008-07-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

his poetics shall exist here.

while that which reflects his reality would be reflected in this dimension.

2008-07-10T10:18:00.002+08:00

oath of the wind

the path of no return,
as he embarks he pauses,
to look upon her one last time;
he doesn't, onward he strides

in a quest to recover that power,
which was once rightfully his,
he humbly approaches the tower,
hell bent on his vengeance

for he hopes those whom he inspired,
would countinue to be,
and in his absence, prosper
but he wishes only one thing upon us

"Move on, be brave, don't weep at my grave... because I am no longer here. But please never let, your memories of me disappear."

to those who adore him,
they would understand,
how he feels and what must be done,
lest he'd be forsaken.

2008-07-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

Song: Drained

The air's so thick
It blurs my vision
I can't think straight
In this condition
This dim lit hall
Is stretching further
Not knowing
What I might discover

Through a door half open
A painted light bulb swings
Casting someone's shadow
Reaching towards me

Something draws me here
Not sure
Feeling Drained
Still I am curious
Haunts me
Taunts me
Now I start to Gravitate

Remain composed
I hear some laughter
The darkness in me
Moving faster
A handle turned
A door is opened
Ashtrays
Cigarettes still smoking

And there again before me
The painted light bulb swings
And see I cast the shadow
The one I saw moving

Cannot catch my breath
Can't cope
His face turns toward me
Can't be
Not me
The man in the mirror

It's all too clear
As I stood there
Acknowledged him
In reflective glare

I don't quite understand
Why any of this
Is who I am
I'm damned cause I doubt
It's part of me
Trick of the mind
Pschitso you see

It's like awakening
I'm in
Someone else's skin
Molds me
Holds me
Controlled
Left me Drained and empty

Transformed
Shifting
I peer inside
A well of atrocities
Like quicksand
You pulled me
Down deeper
All twisted inside of me

~

this feeling,
akin to being ablaze,
engulfing me
part of my true strength
slowly returning...

2008-07-06T14:18:00.003+08:00

But what happens when karma,
turns right around to bite you,
And everything you stand for,
turns on you to spite you,

2008-07-05T02:15:00.004+08:00

"God gave the gift of Artists, so that people may dream while they are awake."
- Steve Vai

the void within
a sunken pit of despair
these feelings null, thin
sorrow from dilapidated ruins

as I walk, broken
I recall all too well
the words spoken
and how hard I fell

2 years on
12 heartbreaks later
none of which healed
this broken shell of
who he once was

and so came 13,
the one who could heal
his quest finally came to fruition
till he realized she was obscure

as always, he rises from ash
trudging into the future
never looking to the past
pondering,if anything would last

losing faith in himself
losing trust to his fellow
searching for a future,
but never find that which holds true

where lies the once great
his impeccable intelligence
enchanting melodies
and unrivaled power

his greatest force
source of power
was she he'd put
in his heart

she and only she,
would allow him this
to be able to fully manifest
and finally, live

as days pass
his power wanes
this wicked past
I'd wish away.

holding dearly onto shards of the broken memories...
slowly it corrupts

2008-06-26T11:48:00.002+08:00

death
the ending of all things to come
life
the coming of all things to end

without one, we cannot have the other

without death, there can be no life
without life, how could you die?
without destruction, would we create?
without creation, would there be destruction?

we should not fear that which makes our world beautiful
climbing the crest, down the trough
without rise and fall
would life have any meaning?

the biggest mistake I made was perhaps flying too high
for what followed, by far the most excruciating dive
crashed and ablaze, my life ended there
but with hindsight I realize...

if I never experienced it...
could I really appreciate the beauty in life now?
would I be this receptive, thankful?
building my fortress stronger than before

through the ashes of the wake
we should not grief the past
look toward the bright future
and the life, that the ashes allowed

but words are not enough for me to express myself ... if only I could....

2008-04-15T02:18:00.002+08:00

a pity that our paths cross,
the arrogance of you
your pompous insolence
corrupt are your values
and so (is) your vision.

I regret having to do this,
but I'm afraid your journey will end here.
Its time you witness first hand,
why I was chosen to be the one
to bring you to your knees.

you've played your final card,
sealing your obliteration.
be prepared

2008-01-05T18:04:00.001+08:00

gone till 14 mar

2007-12-09T01:05:00.001+08:00

in the hour of darkness
the moment I feared has come
the moment I lost my faith
promising salvation?

my soul is my own
I do not fight for you

today marks the day
I lose my faith in humanity
all my hopes of life
my hopes of love and honesty

time to leave the insufferable race
of greeding, breeding imbeciles
who call themselves man

you may have raised me
I may be part of your flesh
but I shall not be part of your ploy
nor will I regard you as brethren

its time to make a change.

2007-12-03T23:28:00.001+08:00

do not undermine that
which you fail to fully comprehend
for their wrath
will be your end

a new age has come, consuming you entire
your lives tainted by tyranny and death
always looking for more, to go higher
only to succumb to your darkest desire

losing your voice, have you a choice
trudging in the footsteps of those before you
serving lords you do not approve
slaving for those while they rejoice

fools! blind to the prophecy
the lies, the trickery, this reality
born to the world, an innocent child
corrupt, converse, and driven to insanity

2007-12-03T23:25:00.001+08:00

more and more,
higher and higher,
another step closer,
burning fire,

faster and faster,
no time to die here,
onward we go
towards our goal!

Never give up,
Never give in
Never relent
Never relive

Throw away ambition
do away with doubt
just close your eyes
visualize
and reach for the sky!

2007-12-02T13:57:00.001+08:00

do not undermine that
which you fail to fully comprehend
for their wrath
will be your end

a new age has come, consuming you entire
your lives tainted by tyranny and death
always looking for more, to go higher
only to succumb to your darkest desire

losing your voice, have you a choice
trudging in the footsteps of those before you
serving lords you do not approve
slaving for those while they rejoice

blind! fools do you not see?
the lies, the trickery, this reality
born to the world, an innocent child
corrupt, converse, and driven to insanity

2007-11-23T16:12:00.001+08:00

with each step I take
the ground trembling in my wake
the burning sky, raining fire
vanquish my enemies, my hate

2007-11-20T23:47:00.001+08:00

pushing me away
you confided in the enemy
having things your way
perception of insecurity

naive, immature, imperfect
failing to think, to act
always first into the fire
losing yourself in desire

fool, blind! how could you not see
the truth, the lies,
the things that you stole from me
selfish, unrelenting, always pretending

again! you lie, this time you try
your feelings are but a memory
faking your love for me
all I see

hypocrite!

you pledge to set things right when you return
little did you know, your foolish ambitions
convincing everyone of your success and difficulties
always looking to escape reality, imagination

till the day you return
I'll be waiting, never fading
for the once opportunity
to crush the dreams, the reality you're evading

till then.

2007-11-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

here I stand at a crossroads...
in my quest for excellence
that which i seek

my injuries impede me
my burning will drives me
forever into ruin
relentless and never-fading

will my leg ever heal?
will I ever run,
will I ever jump
is this a dream or is this real

heal me
believe me
help me...
Can't break out of this prison all alone

2007-11-16T00:23:00.001+08:00

Ku mencintai mu,
lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun
yang tahu...

Ku mencintai mu,
sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya,
kekasih gelapku...

2007-11-11T11:20:00.001+08:00

Did you ever hear what I told you?

Did you ever read what I wrote you?

Did you ever listen to what we played?

Did you ever let in what the world said?

Did we get this far just to feel your hate?

Did we play to become only pawns in the game?

How blind can you be, don't you see?

You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting...

Bye bye, beautiful

2007-10-16T13:49:00.001+08:00

will we ever meet again?
as friends
after so long...

departure

2007-10-15T07:56:00.001+08:00

as darkness burns to day
a pleasant crimson fire
your final words before you went away...

you slowly made your way
the tears in your eyes
why won't you be here
wont you stay?

walking down the lane
come here don't walk away
return to my arms again
my dear don't fly away

interlude

as I laid alone
thinking of my love
where could she be
why is she gone

the still listless sea
brilliant solar rays
her final words to me
dear I'll be back one day

dear don't worry about me,
I'll be fine I'm okay,
learning away from home
i miss you too

when I return
we'll never be apart again
wipe away those tears
never meant it to be this way
I'm always here in your heart
Promise!

solo

2007-10-05T06:53:00.001+08:00

seeking strength, a never ending journey...
yet some attain it more easily then others
how can they be so fortunate?

2007-08-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

pushing over my limits has taken a serious toll
the doctor said I've ripped my right leg's quadriceps
he told me I'd be on crutches for at least a month
it was a tragic blow in my pursuit of physical excellence

stubborn and unbroken, i denied his orders
I will continue training even through this pain
if you want to achieve something
even when you're against the current, you've gotta see it through.

my leg may be weak and painful
but I've yet to reach my goal
and till then I will continue to pursue
physical fitness excellence and power

I will not go back on the promise I laid...
that even the demise of my body would not stop me from breaking genetics.

it may be hard living with a body that nullifies any effort to improve its physique or increase fitness, always reverting to the same, weak state.

my parents may have given me such genes, but I refuse to believe that this can't be helped. I will break these genes, or break my body trying.

2007-08-19T01:38:00.000+08:00

FOCUS

2007-08-11T04:34:00.001+08:00

Seeing the one I loved
in the arms of another
deep within me
a great hatred was born

a plague which consumes
from within, slowly eating
slowly eroding your better judgment
yet yielding an untold power

hatred burns
she whom I loved
is but a memory
and all I long for

is revenge.

Let it consume you

2007-08-11T04:29:00.000+08:00

healing...
but the transformation takes a heavy toll
on the body.
many times I've tried to fight genetics
many times I've failed doing so.

But this time, I'm prepared to pay any price to break through
at any cost.

Even if I was born with a body like this,
resistant to change, difficult to recover, easy to damage

I'm out to prove, even the most stubborn genetic traits can be forced through.
Mine proves to be the most challenging yet.

I WILL CHANGE ALL OF IT!

2007-07-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

DAMN YOU!
I WILL NOT LET SUCH AN INSULT GO UNPUNISHED!
BRACE YOURSELF, MY REPLY WILL COME SOON ENOUGH.

2007-07-05T06:51:00.000+08:00

13 training sessions
14 hours of guitar practice (i said PRACTICE, not PLAYING)
7 hours of music theory
14 hours revision
6 hours jazz music practice
8 hours of sleep every night
44 hours spent in school
3 hours daily in transit

week after week, same routine
yet I still have a life, have friends
and most importantly, have TIME
to spare for anyone.

So NONE of you out there give me SHIT that "Oh I've got no time, blame my schoolwork, oh my boss..." or any of those pathetic excuses. Poor, lame, inconsequential bypasses to elude deplorable time management skills!

2007-07-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

Goals 07
by priority

1. Top 5% School
2. Album launch
3. Fight for place in PSK
4. Train hard
5. Love

2007-07-02T12:28:00.000+08:00

I saw him again
he who I would eventually
grow and mature into
he was someone great

he had powers unlike any other
to help others, to defend the weak
to feed the hungry
a pure heart and mind

he fights for what he believes in
and somehow a divine gift within
his success didn't seem to come easy
you could see the pain and suffering
he endured to hone his skills

I'd wanna be like him
maybe eventually when I mature
I would achieve what he has
free from the bounds of the world
eternally.

a pure soul in mortal form

2007-06-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

irony.
i had slowly strayed from the path which was chosen for me
irony
that it was a dream, that came along and brought me back to reality
and this time, there shall be no failure

no excuses...
his death tore our group apart
but I'm determined to one day
salvage his teachings
and resurrect his lost traditions
in the name of honour
and the light he gave
freely to all

2007-06-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

the dreams return...
seeing my past
reminding me of my aim
the promise I made to him

his death was premature
the promise I made was forgotten
seeing him again after 6 long years
I finally remember

these dreams were not in vain
they're reminders of the promises
of yesterday

its time I stop fooling around... there is something important I must accomplish.

2007-06-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

this was a dream
that which changed
my perception, my beliefs
with acute effect

as I lay down to sleep
the thoughts, questions abound
I closed my eyes, seeking answers
and I saw with clarity

I saw myself, big, grown up
clad in black from neck to toe
tall, strong and with eyes
that gazed right through your soul

as 'I' was standing
I saw a man behind 'me'
he came at 'me' with a knife
delivering a stab

his weapon merely met air
as the grown up 'me' vanished
into white smoke,
obscuring my vision

when the smoke lifted
I saw the man's body, a knife
right through his heart
laid to rest where he stood

his expression of agony and horror

and I saw...
myself... in black... walking away slowly
towards the path of righteousness
he looked back, and saw me
and told me never to give up

never to give in
to train hard
protect your loved ones
and that I am more than
what I believe myself to be

I woke with a start...
it all felt so real
had I met myself of the future
had he come to warn me?
had he come to answer
that which questions me

"if a man was armed and endangering the life of you, your family, and everything you ever held dear, and at a whim would kill you in cold blood, would you fight him in the name of all you've sworn to protect? if killing him was the only way of ensuring he will never threaten your family again, would you?"

and the answer revealed itself, that night.

2007-06-21T04:30:00.001+08:00

the heat in radiance
the flame of desire
the power invariant
his dark empire

nothing but ashes remain
that which was once great
he who was once whole
fuel to the fire, to dust

out of his ashes
this strange illuminate
this terrible feeling
such horrible, diabolic power

new strength was forged
his allegiance bound
to a new master
his power and him, one

do not invoke the wrath
especially of those
whom you do not fully comprehend
for that mistake, shall be your last.

2007-06-18T18:38:00.000+08:00

perhaps love was never meant to be...

2007-06-17T02:37:00.000+08:00

the substrate to anger
the fuel to hatred
the catalyst to vengeance
the flame of eternity burns

mortal, bounded and weak
their spirits, immortal
never dying, never ending
their wills, never waning

my fuel, my fire
my hearts' desire
for he has been wounded
but he shall spare none

that said power heals him
it shows him the way
bright where it is dark
giving him a second chance

for a wounded man shall say to his assailant
if I die, you are forgiven
but if I live...
I will kill you

Such is the rule of honor!

2007-06-15T04:45:00.000+08:00

when such tender, blossoming love
is denied, dejected...
pure care and concern
that which only grows

from the bottom of his heart
he yearns to be her champion
after her denial and infidelity
he earns corruption

when a broken heart is left unmended
it begins to poison ones' thoughts
his feelings of love, that which is true
has turned to hate, pure and unrelenting

without love, without life
there can be no turning back
without love,
nothing hurts anymore

learn to hate
this poison overcomes him
teaches him to hate
gives him power
that beyond his wildest dreams

love may be a powerful emotion....

but...

HATE is the ULTIMATE COMPULSION!

Learn to hate... let it consume you, and feel that power at your fingertips.
Don't turn back... ever.

2007-06-12T17:55:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to study for the biochemistry test tommorow...

I don't pay attention in class, I don't revise.

For the record, I sleep in BCT class.

So all of you, do well and score higher than me...
for once, someone. please challenge me.

since everyone has been mugging hard the past 2 weeks
I don't expect anyone to fall below...

Show the fruits of your labour.

I haven't even looked thru any lecture notes at all, and it will stay this way.

Score well tommorow and beat me, give me a run for my brains.
Seriously, CHALLENGE ME!!!!

Pretend to be the cool cats but you're sub-standard compared to a slacker like me? You've got me in stitches!

Bottom line, Beat me in BCT tommorow and give me some challenge...
Those who score lower or can't even make the grade, please kill yourselves, really.

Beat me hands down... or perhaps try.

2007-06-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

for awhile i thougt i fell asleep
lying motionless inside a dream...

THEN RISING SUDDENLY,
I FELT A CHILLY BREATH UPON ME

She softly whispered in my ear "Forsaken."...
I have come for you tonight...
Awaken...
Look in my eyes and take my hand,
give yourself all to me...

2007-06-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

the most painful thing to endure
isn't a lethal wound...
isn't an unseen blow...
isn't a slow death...

its seeing the one you love...
every day... wishing she'd talk to you...
but she doesen't, silence.

its seeing the one you love...
and knowing that
no matter how hard you tried
you can never have her...

it consumes you from within
all your thoughts
rattling through your bones
it breaks your will
everything else in between

seeing the one you love
wishing you could somehow reach her
wishing she'd know what you're enduring
wanting to be by her side
but not being able to at all...

this is the ultimate heartbreak

all I can do, is walk away. Hoping I'll heal someday...

I'm still hurting

2007-06-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

kamu sentiasa di fikiranku
walaupun saya cuba memadamimu
kenapa?
perasaanku, cinta padamu
tetap hanya kamu di hatiku
hanya kamu...

mungkin, suatu hari nanti, perasaan sayang
ini padamu,
akan diterima...
saya sudi menunggu.... demi cinta...

maafkan saya...

2007-06-06T00:38:00.001+08:00

Learn to treasure what you have before its too late...

stop all of this...

take my hand or walk away... do choose, whichever may be...
just don't hurt me anymore.

If you choose to be this way, so be it.

don't remember me.

if someday I'm gone

my spirit carries on

but know that

I once loved you... in silence and in all honesty.

that which no longer exists...

all but a memory...

time...

2007-06-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

2007-06-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

i waited painfully...
trying not to fall again
trying to silence the
fear within me...

you have forsaken me.

awaken...
look in my eyes
and take my hand...
give yourself all to me

take me far away...
close your eyes
and hold your breath
to the ends
of the earth...

2007-05-23T22:57:00.001+08:00

broken...

2007-05-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

losing it!

why this lonely love?

these thoughts in my head

why do they not relent?

do they know no mercy

for a broken shell of a man

seeking her , seeking to be whole again?

its time I come clean...

I really can't lie to myself anyomore

this world is spinning around me

all this thoughts spinning inside of me

every day... brings me closer to my last

and shld I sleep and not wake, noone will ever know

the feelings beneath the surface, for her

I wish to come clean with this

as a broken man... either way I have nothing left

nothing left to lose... I am but a shattered spectre

of who used to be mighty, compassionate, a champion

he who protects the ones he loves... with everything in his power.

I will... I must let this go... and I will... today.

please let this be over

the path ahead ; bleak

don't leave me here, alone.

2007-05-21T07:05:00.000+08:00

get a grip
focus
take control
concentrate

my mind, too murky

i need to break through

somehow...

somehow.

2007-05-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

mental flashbacks
handwriting recognition
deep memory
pattern matching
speech propagation
voice timbre, pitch
and all the clues you left.

I know who you are, I definitely do.

My perception has never failed...

2007-05-13T11:57:00.000+08:00

difficult, so difficult
fighting a broken heart
seeing her always
a longing, deep heartache

in all honesty
since I got to know you
have slowly grown fond of you
over the months and now a year
of friendship

you were there
when my others failed
you were there
in my saddest moments
and you made me smile

its hard going through each day
with these feelings for you
wanting to be yours, for you to be mine
yet I've not told you anything of this
and I fear my feelings for you
aren't mutual

its clear, right now, right here
I stand a man so broken
that I've nothing more to fear
a shattered heart
I just wish for someone like you

to heal me, believe in me
restore the faith in life, in love
reverse the damage done by those
who never cherished the person
who'd readily give his all
just to make her smile

as I walk, pondering
I do not wish to hide
my feelings from you, anymore
I wish for us to be more than friends
not because I want to,
but this broken heart, this broken man
he is in need of your warm company
above all, only you.

please don't walk away

2007-05-10T01:39:00.000+08:00

regardless of what may come
his will and body are immortal
for it is the one and only Greatness
in the universe, his divine power
unfailingly warding him.

his strength, his own
powers unbeknownst
the source of all his strength
nature herself, mother of all

immortality forever within me
till the day He sends the angel
he who counts the sands of my time
but till that day
unfaltering, adominable, raging spirit.

Nothing in this world can harm me.

2007-05-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

treading on the fine line
between all things clear
and all things murky
lucidity;turbidity;posioned

walking the path
between madness and hope
neither life nor death
from the depths of dark
to the altars of light

faltering, fading
fighting, winning
falling, losing it
this godless crusade
she decides his path

would it be for unity
or for destruction of all
who oppose his will
a poisoned heart broods
hatred

hatred spawns seeds
the seeds of reprisal
sowing
the root of all evil

once one tastes the power
of chaos and darkness
tempting, irresistable
something to die for

he has tasted that raw, dark and unrelenting energy
an unholy will, of ominious intentions, within
for now it remains chained by the will of heaven
but he has the key to the prison of the beast

he wishes not to unleash that which remains hidden.

2007-05-01T14:49:00.000+08:00

he was seeking his place in this world
bound strongly to his unique principles
his beliefs, far different from others
slowly but surely trudging a path
through the otherwise invariant

he met one, he met another
two altogether
parting of ways was never easy
in his heart was his greatest strength
as well as the ultimate weakness

having those two, one after another
a place in his heart, empowered him
gave him strength, will that was beyond him
gave him life, an undying spirit to fight
protect, to love and to cherish her

the curse of a broken heart
how could he undermine such openings
he carried on strongly, uno, alone
slowly but surely reaching his goal
till the day his broken heart took him

he wishes for someone
to show him life again
show him the beauty incarnate
the beauty of life
release him from the relentless clutches;

a broken heart.

2007-04-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

i don't quite understand...
why any of this,
is who I am...

2007-04-04T13:07:00.000+08:00

scored straight As, top 5% in Level, Course, School.

2007-03-27T13:30:00.000+08:00

there are many who do not comprehend their own thoughts, and ideas. However they wish to think they are right, those around them otherwise. Such people, many. You there, reading this, might be one too.

Many lack this personal 'mirror' . They see what others do, but do they know what they're doing? They may think they're right, but without this mirror, you'd never see that you're a mistake. If you can't even peer into yourself, do not covet your neighbours.

2007-03-19T02:26:00.000+08:00

dreams of killing

2007-03-17T03:39:00.000+08:00

Whatever people say, refuse to be swayed. The true will speak ill of none, and talk greatness of many.Insinuations are merely pitiful excuses to draw attention away from one's flaws. Seek insinuation if you seek merely to expose yourself, to the pathethic excuse you are. For I will not join your coup.

If you're one of these people, I've nothing more to say to you.

Victory

2007-03-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

Sent the microbio paper over the hills and FAR FAR away.... I've won... and now without a conceited brat by my side, I'm even more rejoiced! Too bad the fool coulden't see things my way.

2007-03-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

My Microbiology paper is in 12 hours. Wish me luck, I'm gonna bomb it too.

2007-03-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

Got it!!! So staying up all night did pay off after all!! I won't be seeing you again anytime soon, Laboratory Mathematics.

2007-03-12T08:49:00.000+08:00

the day has come!
I'm not prepared
But theres no time for that
I've only got one shot at this and it
Else I be doomed

Follow me...

2007-03-09T12:17:00.000+08:00

all my life
put people ahead of me
if I was a step to reaching my goals
and someone was to falter
without thought
I'd assist him, no hesitation

those around me are more important
than my goals.
I strongly believe if you are successful
but you forget the people behind you
all the while
you are the worst scum on the face of this earth.
Selfish, unrelenting.

but now it seems I have been tried

childish one, there are 2 types of stubborn people in this world.
Those with the refusal to give in to obstacles, will not budge to pressure. They go far.
Those who refuse to give in to anything and absolutely everything, even to those who care, these are the stupidly stubborn. This is what ruins people, look in the mirror my friend.

Time will reveal, all that glitters is not gold.

2007-03-09T02:11:00.001+08:00

Parents.
Feed, teach their children
Everyone, everytime
You were fed since day one
perhaps even till now.

they gave you everything
pampered, fed, you grew
and you look at others
who were left alone by their folks
and you think, hmm how unfortunate?

some kids grow up well
with a good future, credits to
their supportive parents.

then there are others, left to fend for their own
left to forage their own feed, sustenance
they grow up not as colourfully
but think this.
Who will ultimately survive?

one who was fed
surely cannot surpass
one who fed himself
rising out of the void
building the path; brick by brick
forging his destiny

he may seem different
but for sure, he is wise
unless one has been through
the years of struggle
one cannot truly comprehend

your parents fed you; always behind you
my parents taught me the best lesson, yet the rarest;
to survive on your own two feet; always on your own
depend on others and you will only be disappointed
for they depend on others too.

its late.

2007-03-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

Singapore-bred Progressive Metal Guitarist.

Dragonfly

2007-02-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

with disregard to whats said before.
a new dawn has come
I forsee only dark times ahead
but I shall not turn back.

We'll fight it together.

2007-02-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

come young one
show me your fire
burning desire
run from the sun

2007-01-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

The time has come
battered, beaten,
strength and flesh
fast fading.

swimming upfall
fighting a losing war
each dawn my life
vanishes for eternity

it is time
the trump card shall show
divine wings, envelop me
for this is a change
one must NEVER see.

till i emerge once more
may silence reign
I shall rise again
bow to him who strives

may the sands of my life be counted.

2006-12-25T02:30:00.000+08:00

just when I thought
days were nights
warmth was ice
and life to be death

just when I thought
my time has come
my very existance
sands of time

like a beautiful angel
you swept down
you're arrived from a place far away
just to tell me things are okay

it has been years since we met
as children we used to play
all day, every day
now, grown, we hardly recognise each other.

things on your end look well
however I am at a brink
seeing you again gave me promise
allowed my heart to beat again once more

never could I fathom
the one whom I grew up with
before you went away
would be the one to steal my heart

i am in love with you
and you are the reason
i rise every day
the sole reason
i live till this day.

Seeing you again,
holding you close
feeling you real
I see that same longing
within you

if there was one wish
i could have fulfilled,
it would be for us to be
together, forever.

Truly, sincerely, wholeheartedly, I love you.
If only I could see you once more, to tell things true.

2006-12-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

Time has caught up
fury of fate embraces
finally, too late

flesh may be weaker
steel, much stronger
but only soul and spirit
possesses might and will

without the mind
the body is nothing
without the body
the mind shall cease

as the sun sets
I feel the rhythm of time
washing and waning me
part by part

2006-11-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

with each passing day
these chains wane
slowly but surely
am growing in power

the day shall come soon
this power unleashed
destiny,continum and fate
and I will be finally free.

2006-10-30T00:06:00.001+08:00

he savours people to task
he steeps others to him
Why are the others blind?
be the tale of the hero

For this day he seeks
power, might and magic
from this day he shall seek
his destiny shall be forged.

2006-10-18T05:49:00.000+08:00

Prophecy is beginning to be fulfilled
The future andwhat it holds
Mind's eye may no longer perceive
Our time grows short
By the time you start living, its become to late.

2006-10-08T04:29:00.000+08:00

Take all of me
And the desires that keep burning deep inside
Cast it all away
And help to give me strength to face another day
I am ready
Help me be what I can be
I am ready
Come to me
Take me away

2006-10-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

the leviathan comes to devour him
to face fate, has decided he
embrace and thou shall be granted.

2006-09-28T03:59:00.000+08:00

Live another day
Climb a little higher
Find another reason to stay
Ashes in your hands
Mercy in your eyes
If you're searching for a silent
sky...

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day

2006-09-27T04:12:00.000+08:00

It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too real
living in fear-
Why did you lie and pretend?
This has come to an end
I'll never trust you again
It's time you made your amends
Look in the mirror my friend

2006-09-26T02:13:00.000+08:00

there will be the third and last dance. This one will last forever.
Nothing will stop me.

The Dance of Eternity

2006-09-24T18:10:00.000+08:00

Don't tell me you wanted me
Don't tell me you thought of me
I won't, I swear I won't