perception of perdition

reminiscent letter,
how could I, how
why, did I do such,
you truly deserved better

some would call this self-exploration,
seeking truth? seeking flaws?
abandoning all past temptation,
an affront, cruelty in motion

though you were mistaken,
to have left me such,
for I was but a ripe seed,
now sprouting proudly in grace.

deny as u might, but soon it will be lucid.
I am unlike any other.